Pathetic

Forgive me love for I cannot forgive myself
I have given you my greatest gift
The one gift you can give only once
And yet receive again and again
but I wrapped it in melancholy, sorrow and stress
How, I ask, is that a gift?

I burdened you with my happiness
And hesitated to consider yours
I was inconsiderate and obsessed
Thinking only of my own selfish wants
And again and again you forgave me

I will never be worthy of your love
And I dare not ask for it again
But I promise you this:
When I am but an ash shrinking into the ocean
Memories of the love you gave
Will be floating to the bottom of the ocean with me...

01/12/00